John 3

Now there was a man of the Pharisees named Nicodemus, a member of the Jewish ruling council. He came to Jesus at night and said, "Rabbi, we know you are a teacher who has come from God. For no one could perform the miraculous signs you are doing if God were not with him."

In reply Jesus declared, "I tell you the truth, no one can see the kingdom of God unless he is born again."

"How can a man be born when he is old?" Nicodemus asked. "Surely he cannot enter a second time into his mother's womb to be born!"

Jesus answered, "I tell you the truth, no one can enter the kingdom of God unless he is born of water and the Spirit. Flesh gives birth to flesh, but the Spirit gives birth to spirit. You should not be surprised at my saying, 'You must be born again.' The wind blows wherever it pleases. You hear its sound, but you cannot tell where it comes from or where it is going. So it is with everyone born of the Spirit."

"How can this be?" Nicodemus asked.

"You are Israel's teacher," said Jesus, "and do you not understand these things? I tell you the truth, we speak of what we know, and we testify to what we have seen, but still you people do not accept our testimony. I have spoken to you of earthly things and you do not believe; how then will you believe if I speak of heavenly things?

"No one has ever gone into heaven except the one who came from heaven—the Son of Man. Just as Moses lifted up the snake in the desert, so the Son of Man must be lifted up, that everyone who believes in him may have eternal life.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because he has not believed in the name of God's one and only Son.

"This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but men loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that his deeds will be exposed. But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what he has done has been done through God."

issues, issues, issues

So many issues have been surfacing recently.. Haha i'm so weak! and I feel a little broken. I don't feel perfect. I feel like I have so much insecurities. But when I come to this place where I don't feel like much, I know that here I really discover the depth of His love and His faith for me. He believes in me. And I am His work.

It's really so simple some times. He didn't die for champions. He died for me. I was nothing. I had nothing to offer. I was going nowhere. Man He believed in me then, and He believes in me now. I am so expectant about the strength He is going to display through me, the awesomeness of His glory that will be revealed in us who have nothing besides Him. I am waiting to see the work that He is doing in me, and the seed that He has planted in me from the beginning. I am waiting to see why He calls me the fulfillment of His dreams, the stroke of His genius, the wondrous work of His hands. He gave me life I never knew was there. In Christ I can be everything He made me to be.

I like that I can be insecure, paranoid, stupid, angry, cocky, and He can be walking beside me, enjoying me. I like that I'm not entertaining to Him because I'm prophetic, or I'm righteous, or I have a spirit of repentance in me, but because I am me. Then instead of likening myself to who I think I am or who people think I am, I entrust my whole being and likeness unto Him whose form I take. I'm made like my Father. We're one, and will only become more in oneness. I'm not worried about who I am because His word defines who I am. His word is rolling and flowing inside me accomplishing the work He began with His word, which is Jesus.

He will remain faithful

Trusting God has been difficult recently. There is so much of myself, my life, that I want to control. Sometimes it's easier to rely on my gifting than to rely on God. I can feel my mindsets being broken so that before Him, I only have Him. Things are not going to be done the same way it was before, and God is not going to move the same way He did before. There is such expectancy of something we don't know. But we do know Him. I know Him. Sometimes it's so much easier to rely on what my circumstances tell me rather than what God tells me. There is strength from within because He lives within, and He is pulling me inward. Right now there's a digging going on in my heart because the Holy Spirit is leading me to deeper waters - the streams that flow below, that have never been touched before, never been drank from before and never burst forth before. He's moving me from a place where I trust Him only when I need to, to a place where I'm riding on Him all the time. He knows the speed to move at. He's the lion I ride on. He knows when to to take a drink. He knows where the green pastures are. Inward is where the voice come from. It's where the Holy Spirit whispers the things of the Father's heart.

The eagles are circling the skies. "Be patient. I will give you all the land that you see."

Let the fire fall, let the wind blow, let the glory come down.

i miss you..

oh maruichi ramen. my flesh cries out!

I am nothing without Him.

Without Him, there is no meaning, there is no purpose. Without Him, there's no life, no love, no peace. Without Him, nothing means anything. Without Him, heaven is meaningless and earth is meaningless; hell is meaningless. Without Him, I am nothing.

"Come. Walk with me."

Yea noodles!

Emily cooked this two days ago:

Seriously man if u saw the amount of ingredients she prepared, it's like she was throwing a buffet of meat, liver, vegetables and other assorted stuff that cannot fill your stomach but look good on the outside. wan hsi suggested selling this for ten bucks per bowl. I'd say twenty five.